~ Papa wont come back..~

“Papa won’t come back – I know.” , this disheartening words from a 16 year old girl gave a chill down my spine. Suddenly she had grown old and started to recognize the world with her own imagination and interpretations.

Sahil, my friend left this world last week after being almost bedridden in a hospital fighting corona. All of his focus throughout his life (all of 47 years) since he became a father was for his princess Diya whom he always adored and praised in our talks. Every next sentence was focused on things in and around Diya – such was the love and admiration he had for his daughter. 

Enquiring about her state of mind from Suresh, elder brother of my friend Sahil, he thus spoke -“Hearing about her father’s demise, she went mum and hardly spoke to anyone , she is all self-hypnotized with the thoughts and time she shared with her father, the worst part being, she was not even allowed to see her father one last time. Suresh, further told that Sahil’s last word for Diya were “Just give lot of blessings and love to her, my last one probably…will always love her!”

“It was the toughest message I have ever conveyed to a teenager.” and whilst I did so, I cried and questioned God today, why he did this to us? What wrong we had done to have such situation.

I had no answers to Suresh’s question, and I kept on listening to him with all ears. We as humans can react to the situations and control them to a certain extent, the end results is beyond are reach – this is exactly what Gita explains. Many of us have been prior witness to such occurrences in life when we needed something desperately or wanted situation to turn up in a particular fashion, but it didn’t happen. At other times, we didn’t want situation to roll out as we had no interest in its outcome, it eventually happens – have we thought why this is so, the inevitability is beyond our control.

The twist of time can touch anyone at any moment of our lives , even if we are prepared or not, the situation will go out of control if it has to and we being a witness won’t be able to judge or command the outcome. The belief in the supernatural world or what humans define it as ‘God’ exists due to this compelling factor else if we were to control every bit and pieces of this universe, we would be called God!

As they say, daughters have a spiritual bond with their father, to the envy of the world. In most families by natural instance, daughters are the choices of daddy’s, not that sons are not, but a female child by default take unspoken precedence. This naturally happened with Diya – I have seen her as a new born and have also seen Sahil so lovingly paddling through his new found hobby of cycling with his daughter – all those images when come to my mind makes me nostalgic of an apparent love and connect both father and daughter had. Now that physically the bond has wrecked, in spirit it cannot be broken as for Diya, her father would always be a hero and a living reality. In such short span of time, she has loved and lived the best moments of her life with the most charming man he has ever met till date…. Why not then she should cherish the living memories so lived!

As the call neared its end, Suresh told me another small incidence which doctors told him inside ICU – In his dying moments, Sahil told the medics, tell my family that I will always be there for them through thick and thin, and would be keeping a protective vigil for the rest of their life …. That is a father’s promise to her daughter!

Such was the love and compassion Sahil had for his family – though he is no more in flesh and blood, but I truly know that he would always fulfill his promise which he has always done as a father and a husband… Bye Sahil for your heavenly sojourn, I know your last words would deem come true in form of miracles which Diya might one day tell me whilst she continues her life here in this physical world…!!!