~ Life Fades ... ~

Sitting in this magnificent sunshine I admire God’s beauty, with birds chirping around a perfect harmony encompasses the ambiance.

Old folks sitting in benches just snoozing and passing time and awaiting that ‘Final Moment’ talk about their life’s journey – a cache’ they all have to discuss is the regret and many failed decisions they took whilst they lived. Many of them had glorious career’s and they have food for thought to discuss some remarkable events. But one of the silver lining and a lesson for us is that - Do things which you love and don’t overthink!  What you did and didn’t get desired results you will still end up being a happy soul as you will feel no regret of doing things which otherwise you didn’t do!

Many of these octogenarians were discussing the lost opportunities that they could have explored, for them having doing so life could have at different angles and situations as of now would have had different results. At the same time, almost all of them had a nonchalant feeling of simple achievements during their journey. One common feeling partaking everyone was their discussing their children and grandchildren – their true investments and effort which have borne fruit. These accomplishments were far more grandeur than career, money and investments they had made in life.

Now that they are waiting their final moments, they were reminiscing their past and talk incessantly on varied topics – from politics, to their health and retirement benefits and pensions 😊.

A feeling of sadness glooms upon them a missing friend who used to visit them every day – later to know that the person in question is no more. A sudden heart failure led him to his journey in the other world.

All of us shall be having this finality of life and that can be anytime, anyplace, we must pay heed to the decree of the other world, do we have any choice?  We never came on our own accord, our choice of parents, our situation and even our body, sexuality and nature were not of our own being. We were never asked about many things in life which we partook not will we be ever asked before the sudden exit which shall be to the ignominy and sadness for our near and dear ones when we shall depart.

With a definitive expiry date, we are waiting for our last moment – your ego, achievements, attitude, the “I” in you, all would be demolished at one façade. All your achievements and aspiration which you realized will be vilified and would be brought to a zilch. We are all destined to be achieving the same result. Sitting with these souls, all I can decipher is that be humble and oblige to HIS command. All of your goodness would be in thoughts of people whom you will touch and have helped.

This life is a true deception of our image and what we build out of it – for the foolish  who perceived it to gather monies and stature and titles – the journey would be arduous – for the rest , it can sumptuously be turning out a journey to remember with no regrets and happy state of mind – till that time it is your choice what you bring to your platter!

~ Not a Covidiot ~

No, I was no Covidiot, I took every precaution which I could have taken – considering my old mother and kids in the house, but as they say it is a cat and mouse game. Almost everyone of us would have to pass through this grill of life at one point of time.

Covid didn’t come to me as a great surprise or a Eureka moment to be nice about – the toughest part of tacking this invisible pathogen entering your body can give you a nightmare if you start looking for statistics which every newspaper showered around as their prime time editorial. On second thoughts, it just turned out to be a common flu, which had to be aggressively tackled and checked with proper diet, medical consultation which many didn’t go for and still don’t.

A tiring aspect of getting friendly with the disease is the loneliness one must tackle whilst one gets infected, the stigmatization of one’s character and the regimen you need to maintain to get over it!

In my entire life, I could not thank much to the power of technology which made me pass this phase of aloofness from the world – be it my pet mobile phone or the power of the internet, I didn’t feel much distress or a sense of seclusion whilst I started to count my days of my infection. Quite intuitively, I started to love myself and my existence and the belief in GOD getting to its subjectivity. There were zillion of things that you want to do before you leave this world, so the run began to work myself up towards a list of things which I loved to do whilst I am in flesh and blood – once the list was done, the process thus began… 

Sustaining  a healthy regimen and motivating oneself for tasks which you were contemplating since ages is a tough challenge, you need high spirits to rejuvenate your energies and reach a mental stature to be doing them everyday without fail – Covid gave me that brilliant opportunity – our rigmarole of daily hush hush living will never be giving you the opportunity to work towards your own self – what you always wanted to do , may be if you want to just sit idle and look at the sky mesmerizing in your own thoughts – the “No Time” glitch will always objectify your mind and the sprint of time will entice to that endless chase.

Another “Beautiful” aftermath of “Covidofied” ( a term which I made for my situation ) came out to be your love for your family and friends. The ALL “taken for granted” souls that we have around us suddenly seem to be a distant past – a glance of thoughts passes by your mind sometimes, what if you are no more, where will you go , you will have to leave them if situation demands so – considering that you are at HIS mercy all along as there is no drug to treat your worsening situation and all the treatment is symptomatic. The situation can turn tables, what if you lose your near and dear ones to such a frivolous flu – which we had never expected coming! Life changes its dimensions and you start to realize the gift of relations and time.

Penultimately, all I experienced during my living a life of solitude was that start living with depth of every moment. Realize that we all are here for a definitive time, our relations, friends and even foes are there for us on a limited timescale. Once gone, we will never meet in same situations we are – though I am a strong proponent of life after life and that we shall come back to realize our Karma’s. Start loving your situation be how much distressful it may be, time will heal, no one lives perennially, do things what you have been postponing till now, make the silliest of mistakes, laugh on yourself , help people around your, love animals - be it an insect – you have no right to take life which you have not given. Everyone is here for a purpose and proving his worth in this beautiful world … till then happy living!