Why Me? Has this question often knocked on your head? Be it when you had aspired to be something and achieve a goal or a target which was very close to your being and it did not happen? This question is the obvious outcome of the result but there must be something grandeur which made it not happen to you – many a time the answers which you were seeking from the almighty come to you with a semblance of truth.
The situation would be such that would
catch you unawares - it could be a test which is being bestowed on you for your
betterment or simply testing your aura and to prove your behaviour in life!
Let me be honest, I have been
tested umpteen times by such situations and believe me many a time I fail –
sometimes there is something going at the back of my mind and the situation
occurs such as someone comes expecting a favour and you are engrossed in such a
complexity that you are unable to help him / her – realizing so , you see that
the time as gone and when you start looking for the person, he/she is gone! –
you fail yourself actually!
Today, I think I somehow passed
or kind of little bit I made my way to peace within myself….A street urchin
holding a set of pen in his hands came to me and told me if I needed some – as the
quality of pen’s were not upto the mark, in previous such instances they simply
Don’t work! – I took the privilege of saying “N0” – though he insisted again – “Bhaiya,
Le lo please.” [Sir, Please buy some.], to which I again denied. As he took
turn and started walking.
Something in me kicked and I shouted
and called him back – don’t know what within me asked me to converse with him. He
came back and I asked his name “ Bhaiya, Mera naam Arjun hai!” [Sir, My name is
Arjun].
Kitne pen chahiye ? [How Many Pens
do you want]
I told him “Give me two, but they
don’t work!”
He rapidly replied “Nahi Bhaiya
aap chala ke dekh lo, sab chaltey hain.” [ Sir, all of them work perfectly,
please scribble somewhere for yourself to see.”
He was right, both of the
selected pens were functional and working fine.
I asked “Which Class do you study
?”
Quickly he replied, “Bhaiya, 4th
Class.”
Before I could have asked another
question, an impromptu question he asked with all expectations.
“Bhaiya Rs30 mein 2 kile Atta
Aaajeyga?” [Will I be able to purchase 2 kgs of flour from this money?]
He had absolutely no clue as he
opened his palm and showed me Re 20 note that he had just earned!
Obviously, he was paid more, the
smile on his face meant everything to me! Hoping that this was much to buy 2 Kilos of flour!
As he tried to walk off, there
was a temple nearby and he just stopped there and went inside for few seconds
and bowed down to the deity – I was just flabbergasted – he had actually
THANKED the almighty for small token of help and that today he will be able to
provide food on the table for his family, may be!
I felt ashamed at myself for not saying “Thanks” for doing so much …but today I say “Thanks!” to HIM for choosing me for this little honor with a sense of expectation that next time I shall be completely prepared for such chance meetings with souls who come specifically to test my being!
For the rest, are you prepared to be the 'Why Me' moment... don't worry, one day you will be the choosen one, in the midst that does not happen, prepare yourself to get pass this test of life...!!!